It is vitally important for people to know God through his own words so they know who THEY themselves are! In large measure, Earth souls are deep in slumber, unaware of their god and goddess selves, because they feel isolated, disconnected, apart rather than A Part of the Universal Totality; and in their perceived separation, they span the emotional spectrum of negativity from fear, confusion, loneliness, and despair through apathy, self-absorption, consumerism, and bigotry. We continuously beam intense light to stir hearts and raise awareness, but many still are ignoring or misinterpreting sensations and messages from their souls. Below are channelled messages from spirit helper Matthew and God to Suzy Ward.
God: More of Who I Am
S: Is God encouraged by progress here that we can’t see but that can be seen from your vantage point?
MATTHEW: I believe so, but I’d think that you would prefer His direct reply.
S: Do I just ask Him, like saying “God, can we talk”?
MATTHEW: I'd say so!
S: Well, then, God, do you know my question and feelings about what Matthew and I have been discussing? How will I know if you are the one responding, if you do?
GOD: My child, I'm glad you felt assurance enough to type in there “GOD:” and not “?:”. You always can have assurance if you will just allow its sensation to pervade your uncertainty.
As for “progress” on Earth, I weep with each soul who is suffering in any way and I rejoice with each soul who is feeling joy. I am the soul of all of the worst and all of the best, so I cannot be inseparable from the best and not inseparable from the worst. Am I happy about what I see happening on Earth? For those who are happy, yes, I am, too. For those who are worrying that their tyrannical power is diminishing, I feel that, too. Do you see?
S: I think so, but I meant as the total God, the entirety of souls in this universe, how do you feel?
GOD: There is no “entirety” of separate pieces, there is amalgamation. The souls are inviolate during their physical lifetimes and remain inviolate in spirit, so they influence within the body of God just as they influence the play unfolding on Earth. It is simple, not complex, but I see that you are not grasping my words.
As a child of mine, you have equal importance with the life of Jesus that Christian religions exalt as perfect in my eyes, and you have equal importance with the soul who is causing misery and death. There are equal amounts of my powers and love within every soul who is born into a body you recognize or a body you do not recognize or a body you cannot even conceive of in appearance. Yet, you wish me to see something that doesn't exist beyond the view of me on Earth, that I am only a loving and merciful God.
With equal aspects of what you think of as good and what you decry as evil, how can I be except what I am? In one stage of my Totality, I was purely light and love. Then parts of my creations descended into the darkness Matthew refers to, but they were nonetheless inseparable parts of my whole. And thus they remain.
That is why I cannot give you the answer that you wish in your heart, dear child, that I am saddened and appalled by the injustice and brutality. Nor can I say that I am gladdened only by what I see of the light being spread on Earth. I can reply only as the amalgamation of the two sides of each soul. Each soul has its potential for goodness and darkness, or godliness as it was in the Beginning and the evil, as you see it, in motion. My child, can you relate to what I am in all truth telling you?
S: I’m sorry, but I just don't know. Please let me read what you said. ….. Thank you. I’m not sure I understand everything, but what you said doesn’t seem consistent with what Matthew has said about a "totally loving God."
GOD: Then let me correct Matthew. There is resistance to who I am in "entirety" anywhere religions prevail. First, I AM that I AM. And what I AM is what you and countless – well, I could have an actual count if I wished to investigate and pass on to you, but I don't want to do that right now – so I shall say that I am the countless beings who have lived in any form in any place within this universe in any speck of time since its Beginning.
I am not a separate oversoul – or parent, if you will – who can see my likeness in a child of myself but am disappointed when the child doesn’t grow into my measurements of good or bad. I have no such measurements for my children! There is that energy balancing of the polar opposites that Matthew calls light and darkness, and that’s as good as any differentiation for the two opposing forces.
Those opposing forces keep the universe spinning, so they are not soon to be changed from their oppositeness or everything would go haywire. As for souls, like everything else in the universe, they are energy, my original light energy as I was co-created by Creator and the highest angelic realm. However, when free will became “abused unmercifully” – I am acceding to using your words because it’s your sentiment, but it is not correct in my eyes, dear one….
Let me start again. I am each person who is judged in such poor light by others who cannot know the heart and soul of that single one. None of you on Earth is connected in awareness at soul level, so your judgments can be quite off kilter insofar as a particular soul's purpose in this lifetime. Each agreed to play his or her part in the balancing act, and I know how often Matthew has told you about the need for balance in each soul so that can extend to all of Earth. To all of the universe, for that matter.
Suzanne, I see that I am straying from what you originally asked: How do I feel about what you and Matthew were discussing? But I did reply to that, just not what you wanted to hear. Shall we go on?
S: Then "personal God" means that you respect each person's life as much as any other?
GOD: Yes, but I know your question about motive and intent counting for more than the evidence. There is the difference, perhaps, that you want so much for me to bring into this commentary. Do I WISH that all of my parts were within the light in which I was created? Yes! Who would not wish that perfection of Creator to be returned!
But I do not hold forth condemnation or punishment to any faltering part of me. I am here to respond to what you call prayers of the "godly" just as I am bound by the laws of Creator that are set up within the parameters of my operating powers if the choice made is not within the light. Do you see?
S: I'm not sure I heard your last statement correctly. If I did, your meaning still isn't clear to me.
GOD: I know that, of course, but I intend to give you frequent opportunities to question rather than my rambling without your understanding any of it. So then, to clarify: I am whoever is living at any time, all the time, anywhere in this universe. I cannot be a separate entity or a power beyond that given to me.
Nor can I make new laws of science or nature that you also call my laws. They are NOT my laws, they are Creator’s laws! Within those I was created and am bound to honor. I don’t object to those laws, but I do object to having them ascribed to me only because it is part of the non-understanding about me that prevails in your minds.
S: If you are the total of darkness and light and you really want the light to prevail, isn’t that denying the darkness what it wants?
GOD: It is gratifying to see you thinking, my dear child. Hatonn would be pleased. Why? Because he is one of my major aspects when it comes to communications and records, and he adores deeper thinking beyond the superficiality of most thoughts emanating from Earth. He’s been given a bum rap there because for ages one of my children has been claiming that what she’s putting out is from him, and that’s not so, but that’s another story.
You are worried that I’m taking sides, or better said, can’t take sides. Then who better to set you straight, my child? I am as much the gentleness and searching and on the lighted pathway as you wish to be, yet there is the part of me that equally is, and cannot deny, that soul whose interests and actions and motives are what you call evil. I am not separate from that soul, and whatever that soul does and all of its effects, however "ungodly," as you think, become within my composite and are an inseparable part of me. So, to say that I could “take sides” of myself is just plain unscientific, isn't it?
S: Then it seems that we’re really just on our own, stumbling along thinking that prayers for anyone's safety or health are reaching you, but actually, all you're doing is being aware. Is it, then, that any actual beneficial intervention is coming from other sources, like the angels, spirit guides, souls in Nirvana or highly evolved extraterrestrial civilizations?
GOD: Is that arrangement so bad, my child? …. You’re waiting for me to continue, as if I didn't say it all right there.
S: Those other sources are you, too, aren't they?
GOD: You see! I didn't intend for this to become like your analysts of the mind who desire you to see for yourselves rather than be told. But it was immensely heartening to me that you came to that realization, just as it was for you, dear Suzanne.
My beloved child, you can see that I am not the God that for all those years you believed me to be. You still cling to the idea that what you were taught is correct – OK, that at least most of it is. But most of it is not! Religion and spirit, or spirituality, are not the same. Well, maybe for a moment now and then in Earth time they were, when some of the people received the truth I sent by various messengers as I intended, and those who did thought of it as “religion.” But actually it was spirit – seeing, feeling, LIVING the light and love in the ministry of my children who carried my Word.
Especially in the case of my child Emmanuel, whom you call Jesus, were the messages quickly subverted into what the self-serving leaders of that day needed to keep their positions of authority and control. Greed and power got in the way of the truth every time. So your religions of today teach the lies inherited from those early leaders who turned them into religious teachings, and woe to those who disagreed!
Matthew has explained this and still you haven’t released all of the hold that your Christian indoctrination gained over your own reasoning powers. Oh, yes, you are opening to the truth because you don’t want your son to be giving forth incorrect information. Of course you don’t! But it’s difficult for you to accept the damage that has been done by the suppression of the truth that time and again I have sent to Earth.
And where has this gotten me? More and more fighting – even killing each other in my name! – between the various religions that have been formed by deliberate distortions of my messengers’ words, that’s where. Each religion thinks it’s absolutely right and is the only right one. Oh, my! And because every one of those souls who believes whatever he or she has been taught is a part of me, and I am all of them, I love all without reservation, you see.
S: God, thank you for talking with me. I guess you know that I'm not really comfortable with what you've said, but maybe with more time to think about it, I will be.
GOD: Child, with humility and respect and divine love I hold you, enfold you, and allow you to experience in accordance with your own needs and wishes. In no moment shall I be separate from you, in no moment shall I be disappointed in you, in no moment will I fault you or judge you, and never shall we be more or less than who we are. And it is the same with all of my children. Amen.
S: Matthew? Do you know what God and I talked about?
MATTHEW: Yes, Mother, and I know your dismay that God seems so different from the Almighty and All Merciful God of your religious orientation that still is holding your beliefs very strongly. God would not speak ill of Himself, and He would not be dishonest with you, even if parts of Him are those souls in whom dishonesty reigns. You demand only light, and therefore you receive what you demand.
S: Well, I need to read this again to really digest it all, but Matthew, I do have the gist of it and what you’ve told me and what God has just said aren’t the same. So what do you say about that?
MATTHEW: Mother, no, I haven’t explained God as completely as He did Himself, and sometimes in my fervor to make a point about love and light being so desperately needed on Earth, I have ascribed only that to Him. But please remember that I have told you that each soul is an inseparable part of God, and think of the many instances when I have mentioned the necessity of balance. Think how often I have explained the playing out of karmic lessons and why judgment of others’ actions is not the way to go because you cannot know what roles to achieve balance are at work. But I acknowledge my omission in not pulling all of that together in one fell swoop so you understood that God is all of the light and dark playing out the karmic balancing.
May 26, 1997
S: So I'm speaking with God now?
GOD: Yes, dear one, you are. You and I have discussed already that you are in communion with me more so than if you were in some building erected by a religion ascribing “God’s word” to its formation.
Now then, you just asked Matthew how I can be “perfect” if I’m every soul on Earth and he was thinking about asking me how to respond. I told him I’ll do this myself. So, my child, shall we now talk about whether I am “perfect”?
S: I don't mean any offense, you know that, don’t you? But since you are a synthesis of all souls everywhere and none of us is perfect, how could you be perfect with all of our flawed parts?
GOD: Suzy, my dear child, as to my “perfection,” you said it as well as anything I could come up with – the “flawed parts.” No, of course I am not perfect! I’m not at the level of perfection.
In Creator ALL IS PERFECT. Then there is that level nearest to Creator, the Christed realm, where co-creating began and where all co-creating still is of that original material, only love and light. This is the level of soul energy from whence Jesus and my other messengers embodied in this universe. To clarify, their souls embody or are only in energy essence wherever that intensity of love and light is needed in the cosmos, not only in this universe. That realm also is where Creator bestowed to all souls Its gift of free will with its inherent ability of manifestation, or co-creating with Itself.
It was in the co-creating of Creator and those Christed realm souls where I – and the gods of the other universes – came into being. So you can see that within my range of knowing and powers and the other gods, too, there is less ability to co-create. With Creator, each of us gods co-created the universe over which we reign.
While perfection does still reign in that Christed realm above me, once away from it, the souls had free will to co-create as they could envision or imagine. That’s when the imperfections began. At first this was in all innocence, because the process was new. And once established as to what joinings and what powers were allocated to each co-creation, perfection could have been restored and maintained, but the free will element descended in desire and intent. From that point on, imperfection was co-created because the elements, while the same, were not joined in the perfection of their origination.
Now then, if you would like to question me further, I'm at your service. However, if you’d rather talk with Matthew, then he and I both are at your service.
S: God, are you saying that there is no perfection in you or any souls in your universe?
GOD: Yes. My child, please read what I have just told you and you’ll see why there is not.
S: OK, I will, and thank you, God, for talking with me. Now may I talk with Matthew again, please, with total protection of the light?
GOD: As you've often been told, but I’m happy to repeat it, you are within the light and thus protected in every moment because you have asked for this. ALL who ask for light in their lives receive it just for the asking! And now, my child, greet your Earth son Matthew.
October 30, 1997
S: Do you have constant communication with Creator?
GOD: No, but only because it isn't necessary. The means is open always. We are aware of everything, you could say, without chattering about it. There is nothing of me that Creator is oblivious to, just as there is nothing you are doing or feeling that I am oblivious to. And there is total noninterference both ways – that is, between Creator and me and me and you. The same functioning and reason directs both of these noninterference bases.
Let’s go back to our conversation that was interrupted the other day, about free will. You understand free will, Suzy, you just don’t like it, so let’s talk about this. Free will seems to you a curse, and believe me, as the frequent recipient of it—you must understand the understated humor here—I do agree! However, there are lessons that can be learned, chosen lifetimes that can be experienced, only because there is the pain that to you seems intolerable. There must be balance in every soul's overall experiencing, and I’ll tell you why it isn’t automatically there and how it has to be regained.
When the original "fall from grace"—let's call it that—happened with the original darkness entering the light, then the balance that is only within the light was knocked askew. It's not an arbitrary decision of Creator that every one of Its parts cosmos-wide has to come back into It for the reintegration to occur and all lightness to prevail. That is, it's not just an idea of what would be nice. It's essential within the laws of physics, in your word, that govern not only Earth energy usage and cause and effect, but cosmos-wide this principle is so. And until all of the original light energy is "back home," there will be this askew condition prevailing.
Therefore, each soul is endowed with knowledge of the pathway back to Creator, and each physical lifetime of any soul is given the direction to fill some gap in the learning. The problem was created when too much enjoyment became focused on what you call "evil," and the free will principle of physics became blocked at the top where the "evil" resided in a sense of peak control and authority. So, the decree had to be made—and Creator did this—to dislodge that control so the power of decision-making, free will choosing, once again became the independent province of every experiencing aspect of every soul.
S: How does Creator's decree affect you?
GOD: Well, I am overjoyed in my synergistic self, of course, but in the individual selves that are my essence, I’m basically unaware. You are one of the very, very few souls who know this, you see, and the billions of souls who do not know this are quite a majority. So, even though an energetic level of truth and the universal application of this decree are in effect, the results will be slow to be registered in the actions and motives of humankind on your planet. Or anywhere else. It’s not an instantaneous en masse result.
S: Why can’t the intensity and enormity of the suffering of people on Earth, or anywhere, be ended by Creator’s “divine grace”?
GOD: Now then, how would you feel if you needed to fill in a gap in your experiencing so you could move forward and suddenly, that course wasn't available any longer. Ohhhhh, wellllll? No, dear one, there have to be all the choices so that all the souls have the opportunity to experience and grow.
Why is the child so battered and tortured and eventually is allowed the peace of dying? Such innocence, you say, and such pain and helplessness—who ever would choose that? And how could adults, or anyone larger than the infant or toddler or young child, how could anyone be so filled with evil as to want to live that kind of abusive life? Yes, it does take an understanding that goes outside the sentimental curve of your experiencing to accept that their respective souls chose these roles for progress in the pathway toward the light.
You can’t imagine either causing or feeling such crucial pain, and I can’t explain something to you that you have no emotional basis for comprehending. Well, dear little soul, that is because your nature is beyond those levels of experiencing. You could say, “been there, done that.” You have been a sufferer in many lifetimes and you also have caused suffering to others, and in this lifetime there was no need for your being at one end or the other of this spectrum. Your life has not been free of grief and other sorts of mental and emotional anguish, but overall, this is not within the seesaw effect of the karmic lessons, in your terms, that are still required for evolution of the majority of Earth's souls.
I see that you are holding your belief in abeyance, as if the words make sense but you are resisting feeling the truth of them.
S: I don’t know how to feel about that—it’s not all that simple. God, would you like to talk about El Nino, volcanic and earthquake activity and other effects of the global cleansing? Do you consider them that, part of the cleansing?
GOD: Yes, let’s talk about something more acceptable to you, my child. Well, any one of you on Earth who considers these "natural phenomena" to be part of the cleansing of the planet obviously are of me just as much as you are of me, so I do in those cases consider these increasingly serious “acts of God!” to be cleansing in nature. They’re all in the overall effort to release negativity from Earth and allow the damage of eons of neglect or outright abuse to be relieved so that a desperately required healing of the soul of Earth can happen. What would you like to know specifically, as I can't deem anything beyond your wish for that confirmation.
S: Give me a minute, please. …. Thank you. Is all animal and plant life being affected by whatever is causing deformities in frogs? What will be the logical progression of this strange situation?
GOD: First, Suzy, it isn't strange—it’s the natural progression of the effects of powerful chemicals on delicate reproductive systems. It’s that same basis in all maladies being ascribed to one cause or another, but essentially, it’s a superabundance of the chemicals toxic to all animal and plant life that are proliferating Earth. That is why Earth is reacting so increasingly violently, to lift the negativity that is jeopardizing her very life and breath.
You don't see the damage that is being done to the lungs, the heart and the other internal organs of Earth. But she—your Earth, your Gaia—is different from you only in shape—literally in shape only!—and NOT in different condition from you. Earth is in the form of a sphere. None of her life forms is. But whatever is affecting Earth is affecting each of you, the creatures who live upon her. There is no more separation of you from Earth than there is of you from me.
Let us give this a simplified explanation with a beginning. In the beginning, there was perfection. Only light and light-filled intent reigned in a place that was truly called by the name Eden. Then negativity filtered its way through other parts of the universe and arrived on Eden in the form of what you would call "dreadful" personal treatment of beings by other, stronger beings. That was the beginning of negativity vs. positivity on your planet, now no longer the Eden in the perfection of balance. The original balance left, you see, with the first pinpoint of negativity.
Once that polarity was present on the planet, her life forms had the ability to reject the negativity by replacing it with light or to allow its proliferation to eat away at the very life of Earth. The latter is what happened.
The beginning of the loss of balance was Creator's endowment of life as thinking, feeling forms with free will. But by the time Earth was ready for inhabiting—whether she thought herself ready or not—there was such proliferation among the original beings who started the planet's colonization of the less-than-fully-developed human beings, that already the division of dark and light was formed so tenaciously that only an infusion of light could bring the rapidly deteriorating planet back into balance.
There is a confusion between negativity and the "darkness," in your mind, dear one. Let us depart from the other explanation and address this so that it can be clarified for all time. Negativity is neither "good" nor "bad." Negativity is not the embodiment of "evil" or "darkness" and it is not the opposite of "goodness" or "light," it is simply the opposite of positivity.
Yet, we say that negativity is "bad" only because it is usually connected with behavior or situations that are distasteful to "good" people. Or, "evil" is the name given to negativity because evil is so closely allied to "darkness" in your terminology, yet what is labeled "evil" is only negativity in action. It is an aspect of energy being directed, but the energy itself is impartial, neutral, without a label.
There is the sense of division, but there is NO division. It is the "two sides of the coin." It's that simple. There always have been the two sides, but the choice of which side to exercise—"to smile upon you," shall we say—is what determines which side is prevailing in any area at any time.
Now then, back to what has brought Earth to her precarious health today. Negativity, when exercised, brings a most terrible lopsidedness to anything requiring balance, and hardly any life form is not seeking balance. For planets to survive, just as any other life form, achieving balance is absolutely necessary! Souls have a way of circumventing the absolute need for balance in every moment only because my life force is sustaining every one of you on Earth and many "you's" you can't even imagine in your graphic imagination.
But a planet, a sphere, requires balance constantly so that its orbiting path may be steady. When the orbiting path becomes erratic, that signals the first of the potential "death throes" of the planet. All the forces of universal nature then are not allied, but are allowing the negativity to be "attacking" due to the positivity being out of alignment. None of this is meant to be good or bad, but just the natural forces in operation. You see?
Earth could have chosen to be so out of orbit that the natural result would occur—she would shatter and be absorbed by gravitational pull of the nearest orbiting bodies or forces, and that would be the end of Earth as a planet. However, with reinforcement of light forces, or positivity conductors, Earth could right her motion and stabilize movement of orbiting. This is what she chose, and to do this requires a return to "health." That is what the alleviation of the negativity is all about.
To be sure, there will be what you call “disasters” in numbers of injuries and deaths, too, as you consider them, and geographic changes are coming. This is not news to you, Suzy, as you first heard of this long ago in your timing, and you wonder if anyplace on your globe is going to be safe for human life, and you are concerned about the animals as well.
Dear little soul, safety is something peculiarly obscured from truth within Earth humans. Security is the soul knowing itself, its direction, its course of learning. This is security! You’re thinking in terms of a few years of living in a specific form, that body, and the safety of that body, of many, many bodies, the safety of your children and their families, and the areas of seacoast or islands being safe. There is nothing I can guarantee you about this, nor is that meant to be. All is in accordance with what Earth programmed for its continuation of life as a sphere, as a habitable planet.
All life forms now existing on Earth at soul level are aware of the changes forthcoming, and each human soul and animal as well, chose to experience at this vital time in the history of your planet. You helped create the conditions in "previous" lifetimes. You are enduring and helping in the course chosen by Earth in this lifetime. That is what all of you need to know! OK?
S: I guess so. It’s out of my hands anyway. So, what are we supposed to learn from the deformed frogs appearing in several places? Is the cause of their situation the same cause of AIDS, cancer—all diseases— and birth defects in humans?
GOD: First, Suzy, YOUR life is in your hands and you know this! Think about everything we’ve talked about, everything you’ve heard from Matthew, from all of us who talk with you!
As for the frogs, they’re symptoms of what is happening to every form of life on Earth. They’re such vulnerable little creatures to lower degrees of toxicity, more so than many other forms of life, that the abundance with which they have been assailed with malformations is particularly noticeable. They volunteered to be used for the purpose of alerting your scientists to the plight of ALL life on Earth. More studies and research will happen before the connection with all life forms will be accepted by science.
It’s ironic, isn't it, that when the truth of these scientific "discoveries" is manifested on Earth, those privileged to absorb this information choose later on to curtail the fullness of it? There is a sense of fear of ridicule or rejection among the less powerful or less notable scientists. But most assuredly, when the filtration process is in effect, the fullness of the truth is infused into the minds of those being dealt with most admirably by our panel of universal scientists. It's just that once the information is on Earth, it's treated the way so much of the information from realms beyond your own is treated, as "That's bunk."
Your governments should be ashamed of themselves, truly, because they are lagging well behind the timed phasing in of universal truths and are holding back the other life forms there from opening into the fullness of spiritual blossoming during this embodiment. In short, you are being short-changed in your learning choices because your governments are withholding many truths. So are your church leaders. Earth as her whole self is saddened by the individual slowness of her peoples. Particularly in regards to treatment of each other and the animals, there is a severe lagging over the timeframe of spiritual enlightenment chosen by the souls now embodied there.
S: So even YOU are saying that literally billions of souls are being victimized by the free will decisions of a few powerful people!
GOD: Oh, no, that’s not what I’m saying! And it’s not what I meant, but I was stopped short of the full story when you started typing your impression. Souls, not bodies, is the issue here, Suzy. Yes, a lot of what’s transpiring isn’t what was originally agreed upon, but adjustments are being made at soul level. Those who truly are “victimizing” others, as you say—but “not living according to their original agreements” is what I’d say—actually are victimizing ONLY their own soul evolution! The ones you see as their “victims,” those who aren’t proceeding with their original chosen lessons due to the free will of the few “victimizers,” are leaping ahead in soul growth, whether it’s on the planet or beyond, after leaving their embodiment life there. But of course they don’t consciously realize this!
Dear one, you are in no frame of mind to accept this because you can’t get beyond the consciousness of it all, so I as you—how could it be different!—want no more talk of this now. With total love and adoration of self, for you and me and all life within the universe and the interconnectedness of ALL, this is God, your servant and your self.
April 2, 2000
S: You have said that you experience exactly the same joy or pain as every one of your children anywhere because of your inseparability with all of us.
GOD: Many times I have told you that, Suzy.
S: Yes, but when all of those countless lives in the universe merge at the top, your combined awareness is a product of synergy more than the sum of the whole, right?
S: Then with all the knowledge and energy generated by those billions of souls, you know everything—the omniscient God—and have all of their combined energy to use—the omnipotent God. What do you do in THAT status?
GOD: Ah! Well, first, those attributes are given to me in name but to Creator in meaning. You know I'm NOT the "be all and end all" that Creator is! It's more realistic to know me or try to picture me—feel me!—as a sibling in good grace with you. That's more what I am in truth and essence anyway.
But I can tell you what I do in my highest powers. I move mountains, I part seas, I rotate the planets, I open doors to knowledge that as yet is unknown within this universe. I talk with Creator, I talk with my counterparts in other universes. I weep for the lost child, the frightened puppy, the wounded deer, the smallest plant that has been trampled needlessly. That is the essence of my Totality, as there is no separating the energies of each component from any other. Do you understand?
S: Well, yes, but if the part of you that is me hurts someone, who also is a part of you, is your entirety allowing that to happen?
GOD: Oh my! Above all else, there is Creator’s free will law, and if someone uses that to harm another, I can’t interfere. Therefore, I not only experience exactly the hurtful action of the first, but also exactly the hurting sensation of the second. I can’t escape any of the suffering of humans or any other life form anywhere in the universe, just as I can’t not experience the exact rejoicing of any. So it’s not a matter of my “allowing” this free will exercise, you see.
S: Well, do YOU like what some people are doing with their free will?
GOD: You’re asking me to pass judgment on those whose free will choices you don’t like, aren’t you? Please excuse me, my child, as my question had a twinge of judgment sound itself, didn’t it? At least now you have good reason to stop honoring me at a height I don’t deserve!
S: I don’t know about that. Since you feel the combined physical, mental and emotional pain of everyone simultaneously, has that weakened your powers so that the dark forces gained such a foothold on Earth and anywhere else in the universe?
GOD: This is not so easy to answer. I am not weak, that's for sure. It isn’t that the intensity of pain is not overwhelming for each individual bearing it, but even in combination of all that – which is unfathomable to you, of course – weakness is not a part of my Totality. There is pain, yes, but not weakness. And an alternative to this arrangement is not even offered. That is, there’s no option for me but to endure as each of my beloved children endures, each of my beloved creatures in the fields and in the seas endures.
There is no separation of energy. It can be harnessed or directed by specific means, by thoughts and feelings and intentions and actions that can be called its “attachments,” but energy never is compromised in its neutrality. Therefore the energy which is my composite essence and shared by every life form in this universe is never weakened because it is not diminished, not lost, not transmuted into other universes. I believe we're getting into physics, and who knows better than I how little you know of this field?
S: That’s true enough! How do you heal yourself from all that pain?
GOD: I can’t be released from any pain that is still being felt by any souls. As they are healed, so am I in that aspect of my “entirety,” as you still think of it.
S: But you also experience the evil of those who cause such suffering to others. How do you feel about that?
GOD: My child, think how a baby bird feels when it is pushed from its nest by a different bird. Think of its shock and fear at falling, its pain from physical injury, and a fright it cannot even understand as to what happened and what is coming next. I feel the same frightened, helpless way about those parts of me who have so fallen from light that they delight in what you call evil. What will become of them?
Do I abhor the suffering they cause others? YES, and I send light to reach the souls of those beings who cause the suffering. But it is up to each individual, as inviolate parts of me functioning independently, to respond to the light or not. I am saddened beyond your imagining when darkness flares, especially when such innocence is suffering, often killed, because as you know, not all chose what they’re physically enduring.
With the increase of light being willingly received by my Earth children, the major source of what you call evil that has constricted the energy of Earth for eons is changing. But notice that it is Creator's decree, not mine, that was required to untangle the stranglehold of free will from the peak of darkness!
October 26, 2000
S: Matthew, is God satisfied about the response here to the incoming light?
MATTHEW: Mother, you know I don't speak for God unless He requests it and he hasn’t here, so would you like to speak with him about this?
S: Yes. God, would you like to speak with me about this?
GOD: Suzy, my child, indeed I would! I always welcome the opportunity to communicate with you at the keyboard, where you have much more repose in our chats than without your attachment to that electronic marvel.
So, you want to know if I’m satisfied with the response of all my children to the increasing light that is being sent continuously. How can I say "satisfied" when parts of me are in such pain and terror and other parts of me are causing that pain and terror? You mean overall satisfaction when you ask me to offer up a "yes" or "no," don’t you?
There are many “yes-es” and many “no’s,” but do those cancel out each other? No, but there is less of the light being registered within hearts and minds than I would wish, so I can speak to you with that much of a reply that isn’t the “hedging” in your mind.
You’re wondering how I would change things if I had free rein without that free will law. I could not change anything, dear child! I cannot bring the connectedness down upon what are the parts, you see. It is not that free will is preventing my sense of wholeness, but rather that the independent, inviolate parts of me that always have been operating in their own directions are exactly what myself and my selflessness are about!
That is puzzling you, so perhaps I can state it more clearly by telling you to look at yourself and your children. Aha!
S: I see – thank you, God. Is your proper name Yahweh?
GOD: No, nor is my name recognizable in the sounds within your auditory range. I'm afraid I can't give you an approximation that would be pleasing to my ears!
S: OK! Do the synthesized feelings of every one of the life forms in this universe fall into the emotional spectrum of Earth humans?
GOD: It’s difficult to describe sensations for which you have no common reference. Earth humans' feelings are in quite a dense, harsh range in comparison with those beings in lighter evolutionary stages. But yours are higher in frequency than other life forms that are just emerging from human rootstock in many places in this universe.
I believe it will be easier for you to know that yes, I do feel exactly the same feelings you do in our bonded connection and the same with all other life forms on your planet, and best you not try to understand the synthesized sensations of the universe.
S: Very well! You said beautiful things about Matthew and gave good reports on my other children. Thank you for those.
GOD: I don't believe that I deserve thanks for what those souls are doing themselves, but I understand that you mean the thanks to be for the words I spoke about them.
S: Yes. Just one more thing, please. What did you mean about my being of "Matthew's lineage"?
GOD: Matthew's soul is ancient, of the light from the beginning. Not as your son, but as the composite of all the soul experiencing that includes his soul, which did experience prior to your soul becoming an explicit sensory aspect of his. But once a part of the soul that was the originator of all the experiencing, you and he have never been separate in the knowingness and have chosen to be together in human and other lifetimes for a period of long, very, very long, longstanding.
S: That’s a lot of time together! Thank you, God, for talking with me today.
GOD: You are welcome, and I thank you for letting me talk with you. We talk with each other, my child. Never must I be "impressed" with your sense of wonderment that I would speak with you, but let me exalt in your wonderment of knowing that never are we separate.
We must not stop meeting like this! I wanted to feel one more smile with you before we say goodbye for this moment. And now I say, Ciao, knowing full well that you don’t consider that a “God-like” word of leave-taking. Actually, I wanted to say “Toodle-oo,” but you’d just ascribe that to your imagination, wouldn’t you?
S: Probably! You usually speak to me more simply than Matthew or any of the others. Why?
GOD: Because my relationship with you is so simple! You don't make long charades or diplomatic or esoteric conversations with yourself, do you? Then why would you and I converse in those unusual ways, ways that would be too absurd to ever happen with just yourself. So, there you have it—we ARE simple, dear soul!
May 2, 2001
S: So, why did Sylvia lose her lawsuit against that huge corporation?
GOD: Well, I sure don’t want to be held personally responsible for that, but please do not think that I accept this as a final judgment. Light is not going to forsake this situation! What Matthew has been telling Sylvia, to persist in this until there is a just resolution, is right. She needs to continue with her convictions that the light will prevail and it will! This case is not over! I am interested, of course, in the just outcome that will benefit many. The corporate corruption that she is battling is another area of heavily entrenched darkness on your planet that’s “coming to light.” (NOTE: Sylvia did persist, and over a year later the corporation offered her a major settlement.)
S: But do you personally – or some force you designate – intervene in unfair situations?
GOD: My goodness, child, all the time! Well, not in the exceptional case of Marnie, which you know is out of my jurisdiction, but in situations on Earth, where I have special interest in its pristine beauty and glory returning, indeed I do intervene. Sometimes these occasions are due to angels coming to Earth, divine intervention, spirits helping – there are many designations for the help you receive from any of my helpers.
S: But are you in your entirety doing anything?
GOD: Quite a bit, Suzy! I'm glad you smiled at that! But in the cases of "divine rescues," it isn’t necessary that my full powers prevail. It would be like sending a hurricane to provide one drop of water to a tiny thirsty seed.
S: I see. So then what are you doing?
GOD: Actually, I have addressed this before, when you asked what my “omnipotent” self does. It isn’t necessary that my entirety take charge of anything individually happening on Earth. That is for my helpers to handle, but I am aware of EVERY happening to EVERY soul. How could I not be, as each is a part of me and I experience exactly the sensations as each is experiencing them? I’ve spoken to you about this on many occasions. Anyway, my entirety – and I shall use your word for I AM – sees to the higher motions, like the universal bodies staying in order and orbit.
S: I do recall that now, God, so please excuse me. Is it really so that everything that ever has been, is now or ever will be, already is known? If that’s true, why would you ever have to wonder what will become of any of your children? I remember your comparing the “dark” souls to baby birds pushed from the nest and being frightened because they didn’t know what would happen next.
GOD: You are the pesky one, dear child! In my entirety, yes, all is known, but with free will choices abounding until the final physical breath, what is known is the potential for something to happen or develop from a process.
S: So then it isn’t really correct that everything actually is known–only the possibilities are known. Is that right?
GOD: The possibilities and the probabilities, beforehand, and certainly, the happenings afterwards. Think of this, Suzy – if all were absolutely known, if nothing required any independent thinking or decisions or activity, then why would there be any need for multiple experiencing? What would there be to learn? Why would life itself be necessary? We could just fast forward to The End, which is the Beginning, and let all lives of all times reside at that initial point of Being.
S: That makes sense, but it certainly is different from the omniscience ascribed to you. Does Creator know? Or is omniscience incorrectly attributed to you and maybe to Creator, too?
GOD: I guess you could say that by comparison with what individuals know, Creator and I know so much more that omniscience isn't far off. But we did NOT give that word to us! Do you think it is another strategy of our opponents to so far distance us from you and everyone else?
S: It could be. But I suppose some people hold you in higher respect or reverence because of that.
GOD: My dear child, what I do know at all times are the attitudes and sensations of all of my children! And believe me, those who truly respect and revere me do not need me to know everything that according to the definition of omniscience I "should"!
S: OK, then! Did reptilian civilizations start as descendants of the Christed realm or did they start in this universe?
GOD: So you’re back to those. The energy of those souls who embody as reptilians—I mean those you call "bad," for simplicity's sake, because others are “good,” you know—didn’t originate in this universe. That energy came in through the portals created when universes melded. That was a provision of our gaining some advantages in the melding, but frankly, I didn’t foresee just how much damage and for such duration this would cause. There, that's quite an admission, isn't it?
S: And how! There goes omniscience right out the window!
GOD: Which is exactly where it belongs, Suzy! Now then, it is so that some among the reptilians have long been oppressing human populations not only on Earth, but in many other places in the universe, too. They are the mutated descendants of the primeval force you call Lucifer, and have proliferated with what I can say is alarming powers and numbers.
In this time of universal cleansing, not only your planet's, the direct and primary effort of this essential change is to permeate those reptilian souls with light. They are without conscience due to the light eons past having been eroded from them. It also is so that some of the reptilian descendants, far more in number than the pure bloods, are a combination of human and reptilian genetic orders and are not to be penalized by their heritage, which in most cases is not within their awareness.
I should—no, you never should say should!–clarify what I mean by those souls are not to be “penalized.” Penalty is not a harshness except in your language and effects. It is more so a neutralizing of the darkness by the light so that a state of equilibrium can be obtained. This balance is required before the light can start to become predominant within the soul. Therefore, I hasten to say that it’s in this context that I use “penalty.”
S: I see. Since the inclination for evil started with Lucifer’s free will choices and he was in Creator's First Expression and you were created later, do you still feel responsible for that energy in this universe?
GOD: “Evil”–that’s what you mean here, isn’t it?–was initiated by the misuse of Creator's free will gift to all Its creations before I came into being, that’s so. But when I came along in the line and was given this universe to manage, all that transpired after that is indeed my responsibility. So it isn’t an assignment of responsibility for that energy pattern, as that was not of my making, but it is up to me for correcting, shall we say, and I do wish to banish it so that love and light from the Beginning can return.
Suzy, we have had a most enlightening and enjoyable long talk today! I feel that finally you are knowing me on a more "personable" level than you did for so long, which your entirety concept of me welcomes! And now, my beloved child, I bid you good day with celestial blessings as you chart your other activities.
June 4, 2001
S: God, do you play with animals wherever they are?
GOD: What an endearing question, my child! Yes, I do. I delight in the animals that are loved and tended well, like the shepherds of biblical times enjoying the feel of the fur of their sheep or goats. It is no different in this date on Earth. I delight in all my creatures, even those who are in your eyes fierce. I weep for and suffer just as do those who are neglected or brutalized or wantonly killed.
S: Will you please tell me what you’re going to do to save the whales and dolphins?
GOD: That is a request for me to save them, is it not, and not a question? But of course I'll speak with you about this. My emissaries are diligently working to defeat this intention to destroy these beautiful souls that are the anchors of light on planet Earth. It is my intention that those who would willfully do the bidding of the darkness shall not be permitted by law and by activity to continue.
The US Navy is not "in the loop" insofar as understanding the dark intent behind the destructiveness, as they are thinking only in terms of what they are told–necessary "defense" against the "enemy." They are not thinking about the harm that would befall massive numbers of whales and dolphins and other sea life or the domino effect of such damage, and they have utterly no idea about the sacredness of these highly evolved souls, the cetaceans.
The “dark” intention for mass destruction of these sacred souls will not be permitted to happen! I can’t deal out of any equation free will, because that’s not my invention, as you so well know. In fact, it is my responsibility to preserve that capacity or capability in each soul's embodiment. But when it comes to allowing free will to destroy those lives in the oceans, which are the most highly evolved souls in embodiment on the planet, that cannot be permitted, and whatever has to be done in the way of light prevailing overall, will be done!
S: I’m so glad to know this! But what about the whales that are being killed legally by Japan and Norway?
GOD: I'm afraid those come under legality in the countries of the killing origin, so in those cases, the souls of the people who permit and actively kill will have to be softened, lightened, one by one. The “big lawmakers” may not cotton to this change, so the efforts to voluntarily curtail this practice have to be made on an individual basis. That’s also true where ceremonial killings take place.
S: How soon will we see merciful changes?
GOD: Immediately, my child! The Navy will not be given the authority to continue the destructive testing because the outcry against that will be amazing. It may not be widely publicized, however. More than likely the testing will be quietly shelved after another effort or so to justify it for “national defense.”
The part of the reptilian civilization that throughout all Earth time has been manipulating the weakest and most power-hungry souls who have embodied there will be in a rage and will plunge ever deeper to wage battle with the light forces. So do not be surprised to see other areas of what you will consider, and rightly so, to be inhumane, but know that the torture, maiming, killing – yes, outright wanton slaughter! – of human and other life, the animal and plant kingdoms who are the very life of Earth herself, cannot last much longer.
S: Is this battle taking longer to win than the light forces thought it would?
GOD: I don't know. I think that collectively the light forces did plan to vanquish all darkness by the year that keeps being mentioned, 2012. That is indeed a critical time in your planning and calculations, but it is meaningless beyond Earth's timing machinations.
It is not that there will be no victories on huge fronts prior to that date. I think that if 11 more years had to pass in the same measure of killing, sorrow, rage, fear, grief and terror, that indeed desperation would befall every soul of mild and gentle nature and turn the hearts of peaceful light warriors into retaliation for the dark forces' massive and widespread activities. Oh, indeed one of gentle nature has the capacity to rise up against a foe, and with swords blazing! My child, destruction is in every heart on Earth. Those who feel the most self-righteous would like to annihilate the most “ungodly,” you see. These hearts and minds are at the fringes of the opposing powerful groups, and the sheep are all the masses within those slender parameters.
S: I see. Well, I certainly don't see everything. Is there no limit to the brutality that you will tolerate in one of your souls?
GOD: Surely you’re not asking if I will intervene with powers I do NOT have?
S: You told me that you intervene in unfair situations all the time, remember? Isn’t it unfair that ruthless killers are annihilating innocents? Where do mercy and divine grace – whatever allowances you have to protect the helpless and Earth herself – come into this light vs. dark battle?
GOD: Ah! I should protect the “innocents”? What about when those “innocents” were the ruthless killers and the roles have been reversed? You would ask me to step into the karma that these souls are choosing to work out for their spiritual advancement?
S: No, but Matthew and you yourself have said many millions of souls are suffering far more than the karmic lessons in their pre-birth agreements.
GOD: We’re both right about that, Suzy, but I still can’t step in and stop this merry-go-round! Those souls who indeed are suffering beyond the limits of the lessons they had chosen now are choosing to leave embodiment in great numbers via disease, starvation, massacres, and natural disasters before the end of their original contracts, which at soul level have been amended as being completed. This could be considered the "mercy and divine grace” you are wanting.
I realize that from your standpoint, this is no relief from the darkness of oppression and tyranny over souls still on Earth, but once out of that realm, the departing souls escape from those controls over their lives. They join the light forces against those prevailing dark forces on Earth – that is part of their reason for leaving, to fight the light battle from this higher plane of light. Remember that I told you this is a matter of souls, not physical lives?
S: All right, I see. What about the energy of the whales that were anchoring light energy here until they were killed? What about those whose sonar has been distorted or damaged by the sonar testing?
GOD: My goodness, child, you are protective of each and every lamb of God, aren’t you? That is fine – I’m not finding fault! I realize that you cannot see the overview of the energy or the soul breeding places and healing phases.
As for the whales that are killed, it’s true that their energy no longer is within those bulky carcasses designed to anchor the light within the oceans. However, their energy may remain there to join the light workers on that liberated basis of "free spirit" or it can work in the universe with the light forces in body who are stabilizing Earth in these times of greatest changes ever on my Eden planet.
S: I see. Overall then, you are satisfied with the progress of the light forces even though the dark forces still are causing terror, hunger, endemic disease, torture of the body and mind?
GOD: You are pointing fingers in either despair because that is what you see, my child, or in criticism because any of those situations still exists. This is a play set in motion and it cannot be stopped, frozen in midsection, and the players nevermore growing from that point upward or forward.
It seems that you have no intent to judge others, but nevertheless, my child, you are placing your values, your ideas and what you need for your heart to be lighter, on all other souls. They do not have the same lessons or the same qualities of character to even identify rationally with what you need for your soul to be at peace!
It is not a simple situation at your level of understanding life and learning, of remembering. It is simple from here – getting things back into balance. I do wish it could proceed as you would like, as all others also pure in heart would like! Impatience with the slow dirge-like procession of killing and grief and control seems to be the emotional blanket forever covering the planet.
Earth herself is weary of this. She, most of all, has suffered almost unendurably, and her consciousness, too, is asking for stepped-up light for her healing. The light is coming in such grand measure, my child, that you need to take this into your brain and process it that way, because emotionally you are set back each time you read of a brutality to any life.
So, I'd say that you may wish to read this and tidy up the areas where my words are not spelled correctly or you would prefer to soften the language, choose a better word, insert an omitted word – all that sort of work you have been trained to do. Please add our talk today to the others I want in the third book.
S: OK, but God, I don’t think you answered my question about whether you are satisfied with the light's progress here.
GOD: I think I did, but it may not be to your satisfaction. Would you like to tidy up our conversation as you read again my words and evaluate my response?
S: Thank you. …. I still don't think you told me whether you are really satisfied with the progress of the light against the dark forces on Earth.
GOD: I see, my child. Very well, in a word, NO! How could I be satisfied when so many of my soul aspects are crying in torment and deprivation and others are the cause of this? When many of my children are enchanted by Satanic worship that abounds in such widespread rituals of torture and killing that your mind could not handle it? When some of my children have fallen so far from the light that they rule with tyranny and destroy all who oppose them? When so many of my children are living in fear and horror or are dying because of the deeds of these others who also are my children? When deception and corruption abound to the point of no truth being illuminated except when the light is so strongly exposing it that those who believed the lies are devastated upon learning the truth?
But my dear Suzy, I am able to see the broader horizon, the full measure of this conflict, and when I see the light that is emanating today from a soul that yesterday was hazy, more inclined toward control by the darkness, I rejoice in that lost one – the “prodigal son” – returning. When I see big areas, like a town in your thinking, where light is emanating from hearts that formerly were cold and dark, I rejoice!
Would I like to see the TOTAL of Earth life in peacefulness, love, sharing, caring and service one to another? OF COURSE I WOULD! But do I have the power to snap a finger and have this be so? You know I do NOT! So I send my love and light everywhere, to every soul, and I may as well rejoice in the pockets of light rather than dwell in the pockets of darkness and weep, you see.
S: Yes, God, I do see as well as I can, because trying to imagine all that you must be feeling is overwhelming. Do you ever feel that way yourself?
GOD: If you will just think of me as all of my children, then you must know that I do indeed feel correspondingly overwhelmed.
S: Yes, of course. I’m sorry–I get stuck in my single-self feelings and lose sight of what you’ve told me. Will you please explain exactly the limits of your powers on Earth? I know I’ve asked similar questions, so maybe you’re expecting me to know this, but I really don’t except that you have to obey Creator’s laws.
GOD: Well, first, my beloved child, your “single self” is exactly why you are having this Suzanne lifetime, and your entire range of feelings and what you do with them is your purpose for being there! Never is sense of self to be equated with selfishness or egotism. I don’t mean that a self cannot be selfish or egotistical, but there is a huge difference between feeling self-ness and those characteristics.
As for the limits of my powers there, I feel the same confusion as you, and as you, how could I not? So I shall give this a good effort. I do not mean to sound weak and totally unlike the All That Is omnipotent being you still think me to be, because I do have powers, of course, but also I have limits. They’re not like a barbed wire fence, let us say, with well-defined boundaries and exact limitations for maneuvering and pretty harsh effects for trespassers.
What I MUST observe without exception is Creator's law of free will being supreme over all other laws. I don’t mean that the other laws are weaker, such as like attracts like in the energy streams and the principles of manifestation, but nothing within my power is capable of subverting any of my own soul aspects' free will choices. So in that sense, you could say that my “father/mother ruler" has given me far stricter moral and spiritual guidelines than any rules given on Earth, and you can see that the "supreme" energy potency associated with me is not without limitations.
Let me give you an example. Let us say that you see a star and think it would be nice if you could put that star in a different galaxy. No reason is needed, only the capability of performing something that appeals to you. You don’t have that capability for good reason. Do you know what would befall any civilizations living on or near that star, depending upon that star for heat, light, orderly stability? No, you don't, and therefore you don’t have the power to play with the celestial bodies.
I do have the power and energy to do that because I know exactly what would happen if one star were taken out of its orbit and stuck in another place. I don't know how taking the free will gift out of universal experiencing would upset life on a cosmic basis. Creator does, and only It has the capability of amending the power of free will. And that Creator did, as you know, in Its decree that the topmost darkness had to free all the captive free wills of the souls that force had penned into its cumulative energy mass.
I believe you are beginning to see my position of the god of this universe with more of my perspective, dear child, although I must admit that it is not an easy one for any human being to fully comprehend.
S: I do understand more clearly now, though. Thank you, God, for your patience with me and for all of your answers, too.
GOD: Child, it is my delight, my joy, to communicate with you in a sense that you know absolutely that I am saying these things to you, that it is indeed God answering your questions, respecting your questions!
My many futile attempts to interest a publisher in the books and later, after I formed Matthew Books publishing company, futility in getting my print order filled, prompted a ton of talks with God. He wants these few passages included.
January 13, 1997
GOD: Suzanne, you and I have chatted so often that I could, but I don't want to bother counting all the times. You think you're playing mind games, but each time you chatter away with yourself, I am aware. It is not always I who answers, but sometimes I do. I don’t tell you what to do, but often I tell you what I think, and you say, "Gregory [my guardian angel], is that you?" or "Matthew, I know it's not you because you wouldn't talk like that." No? God is not what so many think, the vapor essence without face or voice or contact or would use only “proper” words. No way!
So, I am aware and correspondingly concerned about your attitude of momentary hopelessness about the book. As Matthew has told you, I mandated this book and the ones to follow, and the Council of Nirvana is my supervising arm. When I give orders – which is often, by the way, it's just that there is no punishment from me when they aren't followed – but when I give an order for something of the measure of importance I place on this book, it DOES happen. I know exactly when, but you wouldn't understand my "time" even if I did my best to explain it in words you do understand.
Very well, I shall do my best. When the energy of the book – in which there is an amalgamation of many energies – when that energy flows in alignment with the correspondingly strong and like energy sources within the universal code for publishing time, voila, there it will be by name and worthiness.
You see, I said you wouldn't understand. But that is a facet of the translation of energy into Earth terms and it affects everyone there. That’s all for this minute. In abundance of light and loving energy to you and all whom you love, dearest soul, this is God, leaving in full appreciation of your communication, including what you did not say.
March 10, 1997
S: Matthew, if you’re sure God wants to talk with me, of course I’ll talk with Him. Good morning, God.
GOD: Suzanne, please listen to your son. He can speak for me on these subjects you have been addressing this morning. He and I would say the very same thing, and you wouldn’t like it from me any more than from him, isn’t that so? It’s not that I'm unwilling to tell you myself, but Matthew knows far more than you are willing to attribute to your "little boy." Here he is not anyone's "little boy." You would be the proudest mother in the world if you could know him as he is in his full soul.
Well, let me see what I can say to encourage you. You are challenging me a lot lately. I love it! You had removed me from your awareness far too long, and I'm joyfully welcoming this close communion. Know that you just have to say, "God, get over here and tell me what's up," and then stand back in your thoughts and let me give you the answer you're seeking. You tend to bluster your way through my reply, and then assume I never did get back to you.
Ah yes, the books. Back we go again to needing reassurance, eh, Suzy? Well, dearly beloved little soul, I am human enough so that I understand. You aren't whining – you just want something intensely. Naturally I know the full scope of your feelings, and believe me, they are well founded because this has dragged on far longer than you were originally led to think. However, the course of the first book is straight, it is sure and certain. Put your energy into the second book.
You’re not even mentally arguing with me, my child, and I thank you for that. Actually, you're doing admirably on patience and faith, and I thank you for that, too.
April 28, 1997
S: Good morning, Matthew and all Friends who may be with you.
MATTHEW/GROUP: Mother, we have to laugh at your prayer for light protection with elaborate confirmations that God also is welcome in these sittings. Of course, He is laughing, too – as we laugh, so does He. Now you’re wondering if we talk with Him and get clear messages. Yes, all the time. Frequently we discuss the various aspects of our greater service, and He speaks not necessarily in words, but certainly in clear reply infused with light and love.
MATTHEW: You have the usual list of questions, I see. Yes, Mother, now it’s just me, your "little boy" speaking, as you were thinking since you’re feeling my more lively energy. I can handle this easily alone as the energy connection is so strong today. Would you like God to say something about the books?
S: Hi, “just you” sweetheart! What made you think of God saying something about the books?
GOD: I did, dear one. I was nudging Matthew to let me in a moment. I'm here to say I'm pleased that you are working diligently on the second book. These books and the others to come will comfort and enlighten many souls, millions of my children, as you shall see.
When? How about soon? Will you accept that “soon" is about as close as I wish to tell you and you will still feel heartened? No? Then how about the end of the calendar year?
July 19, 1998
GOD: Suzy, this is God, nudging Matthew to let me in here. You have been disenchanted with me on so many occasions that I'm surprised you're giving me the time of day now. Why are you? Because you still believe in me in the same vigorous way that you believed Santa Claus was real, benevolent, kind-hearted, generous - all those good attributes you gave that jolly old fellow for years beyond the other boys and girls. Well, with me, a far deeper and more spiritual relationship, yes, but you're thinking right now: Why the hell did you tell me over a year ago that the books would be published by the end of LAST year?
Surely we don’t have to go over that again, Suzy, that not for one second are your thoughts and feelings unknown to me! You are having natural heartfelt concerns that Matthew's work ever will be published. I let you down there, didn't I? I did say the end of the last calendar year, yes, I did, and here it is in the next calendar year with July staring at us. So what can I say about THAT?
Well, I can say that the human element that is God, in your frank terminology, screwed up. Oh, God can't make mistakes? Oh, ho ho ho, not! Just as you can laugh at that, I can be rejoicing that we are feeling the light flowing in laughter at the same moment I also realize you are serious and require a reasonable answer.
First, I ask that you forgive me. And now you can say to anyone you think will accept that you chatter away with God that he said he screwed up and asked you to forgive him! Go ahead, we both can laugh when you tell people this.
It isn't easy for you to understand, dear child, and maybe I understand only because I'm living each and all lives thoroughly, totally, in every moment. Suzy, only if you were actually this “umbrella God” that you think of me could you see everything, of course. But maybe like my other children who share your dilemma of why I have let them down, you can accept that if I am you and you err, I also err because I cannot avoid it. Now put that into the perspective of every soul on Earth!
That time in your dimension was not a mistake, not even a miscalculation. What I did not do was take into account that free will can change midstream even when the current is running so swiftly and surely as to be almost at the end of its journey to the sea - in this case, the sea of publication. And my omission is why I’m asking for your forgiveness.
What happened is that powerful forces of darkness came in a swoop and derailed a great many projects of light, including those manuscripts. Yes, in a time that is even more right, this darkness will be dispersed and the books will see the light of publication. So, shall we make our pact to cooperate once again in friendship as our joint selves? There is abiding love!
December 2, 1998
S: Well, Matthew, that’s not good enough after all this time, so I’ll do what you suggested and see if God has a better suggestion. God, hello?
GOD: Hello, my child.
S: God, will you please tell me what I should do now about these books that you “ordered” to be published?
GOD: All right, Suzy, let's talk about this. Here's my answer to what you “should do now.” You shouldn't think in terms of "should.” This word has its place to be sure, but not as it’s too often used, as a directive, a demand, that one turn away from a direction intuitively chosen and switch into a direction of another’s choosing.
But you are serious about your work, dear daughter, and I never mean to make light of it, but to put light into it and surrounding it. Light of it is essential, so I guess I was right the first time, but now with a positive slant.
Think of a stream of light in which you see the books named Matthew, Tell Me About Heaven and Revelations For A New Era. See that light stream glowing and moving steadily toward a brightness that exceeds the brightness of the energy stream itself. That is all you need to do as your part in getting these into print.
The universe is handling this now. Just give it a helping hand and forego the negative outlook. You know the power of thought in bringing to you what you want, so leave behind your frustrations and helpless feelings or you’ll just get more situations to give you those feelings.
Of course you can do this! You believe in me so how can you not believe in yourself? You know they are one and the same!
August 4, 2002
GOD: Those feelings of frustration are back, but this time I tell you, they are totally understandable. You have been told time and again that you are in control of everything affecting your life. Well, just as I have my limits, so does your control over the printing have its limits. What you have control over are your reactions, and in this case, your reactions are justifiable.
Moreover, they are not impeding the progress of getting the revised editions printed. Suzy, beloved child, I have only respect and yes, awe, that you have shown such exceeding patience, diligence and perseverance for more than eight years, and your energy poured into these feelings and service are in the light momentum of the books.
All I can tell you beyond this is what I’ve mentioned in context of everything transpiring on Earth during this time of monumental changes there, this time of unprecedented changes throughout the universe. The darkness is battling mightier than ever against all sources of light, and these books with their crucial information for my children are some of the foremost targets of attacks on Earth. This energy is so entrenched around the books that all light being beamed to the soul derailing your efforts is not phasing her.
Keep the faith, dear Suzy! When my wishes are not met, I continue “the good fight,” and this is what you need to do, too. I’m doing this now on so many fronts that you cannot imagine it, but not for a moment do I forget these books! How can I – you do not! Furthermore, they are my truth that I have mandated will be available to my children on Earth!
You have much material for the third book that needs to be organized and polished and more will come. Work on this and keep focused on what you want – this information “out there”! – knowing that your faith will be justified that these vital books will “come to light” because I have ordained this!
January 6, 2003
GOD: It is time for others to get into this situation. I am not saying that the light is failing the books, not at all, but a new kind of light service is required. Yes, Suzy, I mean that legal assistance is necessary to dislodge the free will of the one who is exercising it to prevent the books’ availability. You will be led to the attorney who will manifest this in conjunction with the light. Remember, my child, I work in wondrous ways, and you may consider this one of them!
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